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cassiiiiie's avatar

the essay so good I don't even know which passage to restack. Every sentence is beautifully written and so relatable. Thank you for this pieces of art I will definitely re-read later.

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Still yearning's avatar

You are so kind, thank you💗

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dhia ⋆。𖦹 ˚ 𓇼 ˚。⋆'s avatar

literally

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girl with a big heart's avatar

As someone who has experienced the love that you have searched for, the type of love that consumes you in both the best and worst ways possible, the type of love that saw all of you and chose you over and over and over again… and you had to walk away from it for both your sake, and his. I am proof that you would survive it. It breaks you down in a way that is unexplainable and unfathomable, but if you take all that love you dedicated into that individual back into yourself, you also rise again as someone who is unrecognizable, but in a good way. Love truly is choosing to love in spite of the fear, because what is life without love? I promised myself to keep my heart open to love, despite experiencing such a big loss, and I truly hope you do too! 🩷

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Still yearning's avatar

Thank you for sharing your heart with me💗

It means so much to hear from someone who truly understands and your words bring so much comfort🥹 and I hope like you I can keep my heart open despite everything

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girl with a big heart's avatar

Of course! 🩷 Thank you for opening up your heart to us too!

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Georgia Jennings's avatar

I'm going through this right now. This was the best thing I possibly could have saw

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SBG's avatar

beautifully said!!!

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girl with a big heart's avatar

i didn’t expect for this comment to get a lot of attention 🥺 if anyone wants to connect and be writer friends, please reach out! i’d love to read more of your pieces!

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Zoe Elisabeth's avatar

I really related to this--I feel like love is so complicated because in some ways it's easier to exist without it because of the control it can have over you, but even when it messes you up it's something we still end up craving. Beautifully written :)

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Still yearning's avatar

That means so much to me 💗Love is messy and complicated, but we still find ourselves wanting it anyway

I'm really glad it resonated with you

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rahma's avatar

this perfectly summed up my thoughts- i feel like you scooped out my brain and wrote all of them down here 😭 I just KNOW I'm gonna keep returning to this essay

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Still yearning's avatar

this means so much to me, knowing my words felt like yours too is the best feeling💗 Thank you for reading 🫶🏽

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Charlie's avatar

From my experience, love comes slowly, and if it's a great love, it'll make you an even better version of yourself, without changing you. Love will always be your biggest cheerleader and will treat you greatly. Love makes you stronger, softer, and so much more. Love will come, and as cliché as it is, it will come to you at the moment you least expect. And you will love it

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Still yearning's avatar

That's beautifully said! Real love nurtures, strengthens, and comes when you least expect it but exactly when you need it

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Francine Dominique's avatar

If only I could restack comments, I would restack this. This is beautifully written. It looks like we have the same experience in love haha.

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briana's avatar

This essay has put into words my entire perspective on how I see love! Thank you for helping me find the words, you have no idea how it feels to hear someone else share my perspective on it. It seems like every person I have encountered in my day to day has never related to how I see it, which for a while made me feel like because of how much weight I placed into love, that that must be why I have yet to find one connection that stays. I came pretty close to finding someone recently where it felt like they really saw and cherished me, but then just like all the others it ended. He blocked me after what I thought was a successful date and a week of daily conversations where it felt like we were two sides of the same coin :/

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Still yearning's avatar

This means so much to me, really

I know how lonely it can feel when it seems like no one sees love the way you do but I promise you're not alone in that

The way you love isn't too much, it's beautiful and it deserves to be met with the same depth and care

I'm really sorry about what happened,that kind of sudden loss hurts in a way that's hard to explain

I pray you find a love that will honor the depth of your heart and never let go🫂💗

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strawberrybeans's avatar

This is so beautiful it almost made me cry, thank you for this ❤️‍🩹

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Still yearning's avatar

Thank you for reading 💗🫶🏽

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Liana Palas's avatar

This was absolutely beautiful!🥹 It was such a pleasure to read…

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Still yearning's avatar

Thank you for reading 💗

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mady plata's avatar

This is one of the most beautifuls articles, I actually believe that this was going to be one of those that makes me believe in beautiful and delulu love, I have to say, I really want that, but you hit me whit this, Is actually rude and sincere, I mean, thank you, for being vulnerable and real, for show us that love Is complicated but all of us deserve to feel It, to fight for it, to fall for it :))

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Gorditaxllorona's avatar

I’ve been feeling this way about love for a while. I just didn’t have the words for it. Seeing others feel the same way makes me feel less alone about it all. Thank you.

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amy🤍's avatar

This essay is incredible!!! It beautifully articulates all the crazy feelings and thoughts that I personally have relating to love, thank you for sharing this x

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Momoko's avatar

I hope we all find that kind of love and more than that I hope we love people like this…

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yor's avatar

I feel so seen and finally understood. We should never question whether we’re enough for that kind of love. We are what we love—we are the love we give, not the love we receive. And I think that makes it feel all the more real. Thank you for this! 🥺💗

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Dotty's avatar

This essay is so vulnerable, it's like taking a look into who you are, I feel like I've seen you and I don't even know you.

Heyy, I also think you would love this essay, I read it today and shares almost the same sentiment that you do here.

https://substack.com/@missionarymai/note/p-161252913?r=33oc61

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Agnes Wango's avatar

I wish I could take a picture of my exact reaction. I feel seen. I feel heard . Thank you so much for this ❤️

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Francine Dominique's avatar

Oh, I love reading essays like this. They make me tear up a little. It's like finding a gem in a field of flowers.

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